a wake up call to a rented room
sounded like an alarm of impending doom.
to warn us it's only a matter of time
before we all burn
one week from today marks the one year anniversary of the day toward which my whole life had been leading (which i suppose, in some ways, could be said about any day). but occasionally you happen upon a day you can single out as a moment when something changed, when something began, or when something profound occurred. for me, this day was the day that nick and i had our first date.
one year later, we are less than three months away from the wedding, and i find myself looking back over a year filled with wonder and joy and triumphs. there have been hard things too... things like loss and grief and hurt (and that one time i tried to sleep in the closet with the cats). there have also been other, more mundane things like dinners and swimming lessons and trips to the grocery.
i can say with complete honesty that through each and every one of these things, i have been exactly where i want to be. with nick, and with our family. the family i was always meant to have, even though i sometimes lost faith in that. and no matter what lies ahead, i am lucky to be here every day.
in this family, we have worked hard to be ready to love and care for and accept each other. at times, our journeys have been difficult. there will still be things to overcome, but may we always find strength and comfort in each other.
over the next week i'll post my year in song, ending with the tracklist from the cd i gave nick on our first date. to nick: somehow we knew we'd fall in love, but i never imagined how incredibly wonderful it would be. i love you and our family more every day.
...i couldn't think of anywhere i would have rather been
to watch it all burn away.